Only the young can say… they’re free to fly away… sharing the same desires… burning like wildfire…
The song like a whisper on my lips, I sing, “Only the young -.”
I’m interrupted by a thick hand on my shoulder. Startled, my feet stop swinging off the ledge, and I turn. James, brown leather jacket and all, is kneeling behind me. His hand falls off my shoulder and he smiles.
“James!” I exclaim. “I thought you’d left.”
“Not yet,” he says again, looking away from me. He’s looking out at the city, with all its secrets, lies, doors, and windows.
He’s looking at the future. I know because I was, too.
I shake my head, throwing my dark bangs to the side. With futures so unclear, I want to be able to see. I need to be able to see. See where James is going with his music, see if my father gets sent to prison, see how many times I will fall victim to all these little things.
Suddenly, I feel weak.
“James,” I say softly, turning towards him again.
The warmth of his right hand meets my cheek, and he laughs. His hand slides past my jaw, pushing my limp hair back from neck, and he leans. Before his lips can touch my neck, I whisper, “Is it safe?”
“Don’t you remember?” he asks, pulling away.
Our third date. The night he brought me out on this ledge and we watched all the cars pass by below. We tried to look at stars through city lights and haze. We tiptoed on the edge, scared to fall, but scared to be safe. And we kissed for the first time. Held hands and became inseperable.
But it’s not night now. It’s a year later and there’s been many kisses. And we’ve walked this ledge so many times that walking has become safe. Where’s the danger now?
It’s in tomorrow, in the unknown days.
A tear slips from my eye, and I force a smile. “Of course I remember.”
James pushes forward again, wrapping a strong arm around my shoulders, his lips pressed to my cheek, to that tear. When we fall back together and hit concrete, his lips are on mine. I can taste the salt.
His hand is cradling my neck so gently, and his arm his holding me to him with such strength. Everything seems impossible.
I break from his kiss just the slightest bit and look up. It doesn’t matter where I am, the blue sky always looks the same. Whether I’m lying with James in a field, or on a ledge, it’s still wide and blue.
It’ll look the same wherever I am, wherever James is. We’ll see the same sky and remember. I close my eyes again, whispering, “You’ll never let me fall?”
I kiss him again, opening my mouth with a gasp against his as his knee nudges my leg off the ledge.
With his kiss, I’m free to fly.